Jana Kramer announced on April 21 that she and husband Mike Caussin would be ending their nearly six-year marriage. In the social media post, the country singer wrote, “I’ve fought y’all. I’ve loved hard. I’ve forgiven. I’ve put the work in. I’ve given everything I have, and now I have nothing else to give. ‘It’s time.’” This week, Kramer returned to her podcast, Whine Down, which she used to host with Caussin, to talk about her grief. In the episode titled “A New Normal,” Kramer processed her emotions with friend Sara Gretzky by her side, admitting she’s unsure if she wants to keep the podcast.
“I filed for divorce a few weeks ago and it has not been easy, I’ll say that,” Kramer said to start the show. “I don’t know if I want to do this show anymore if I’m being completely honest. I started the show by myself, and it’s something I always wanted to do… It just felt like ours, and now it just feels weird not having him on here. It just feels weird.”
Kramer then went into more detail about her emotional state after filing for divorce, sharing that she’s been isolating from loved ones.
“When I grieve, I isolate. I don’t respond to my people and I just stay in my bed,” she said. “I had a friend come over the other day and she’s just like ‘You have to get out of bed…’ I don’t know how to sometimes… The morning and the night are the hardest because I wake up because it’s like that scene in Sex and the City where she’s like, ‘Was it a dream?’”
“It’s so hard when I have all these feelings and emotions and then I have to be a mom on top of it,” she added. ”The first week I counted down to nap time cause I can go in my room and just shut the door and cry, just cry and then button it back up.”
Kramer and Caussin were married in 2015 and gave birth to their first child, Jolie, in January 2016. The couple then split in 2016, with details of Caussin’s infidelity and sex addiction later being revealed. The couple worked through their problems, however, later reuniting and having their second child, Jace, in November 2018. The couple used their Whine Down podcast to share their relationship troubles and solutions with fans, and they also wrote about their marriage in their book, The Good Fight: Wanting to Leave, Choosing to Stay, and the Powerful Practice for Loving Faithfully. In this week’s podcast, Kramer alluded to continued infidelity being the reason for the divorce.
“We even had a conversation before everything came to light and I was just like, ‘If there’s anything, I don’t want to find it. Whatever it is, we can work through it,'” she said. “It was just such a connected moment. He swore on his sobriety there was nothing.”
Kramer also shared that she’s the “weakest” she’s ever been right now and she’s “embarrassed” the marriage didn’t work out. She also candidly shared her sadness for having to co-parent Jolie and Jace from different homes in the future.
“The first time they leave for overnight, I’m going to be destroyed. It’s not what I wanted. It’s not what I worked for,” she said. “It’s not what I fought for. And it’s not fair, and that’s what makes me so angry, I worked too damn hard for it to end this way.”
Since the announcement of her divorce, Kramer has posted a few photos with her children, and wrote about seeing the “light” in a recent post.
“I gotta be honest 2 weeks ago the sun was the last thing I wanted to see…but through grieving you start to see the light…even if it’s a dim light it’s still something I’m gonna be grateful for,” she wrote. “But I’ll forever be grateful for these 2 and the forever light they add to my life.”